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I feel disturbed. I mean. Whenever I hear Eternity, it seems like there's this sort of..sadness. A wave of unexplainable sadness washes over me. I don't know why.

It is Eternity. Why does it then sound so sad? First part, I can't understand it. Then, in the latter part, hope. But it still feels so sad. Makes me remember the pain. Pain from before. Guilt. Mixed emotions.

Then, back again to softness. Explanation of hope. Then continuity. Then...nothing. The end.

Listening to it again. I feel pity for my friend. It's his favorite. I know he's confused, and hurt. But he doesn't show it. And I do think that he's playing around with other girls, yes. But still. Makes me wanna help him. Cause he suffered so much with the loss of his ex. Even though he was the one who broke up with her. He feels stupid. Sigh.. What can I tell him? I don't know what advice to give him. Yes, I am concerned about this friend. I see myself in him. Well, most of the time. Although, not the part where he madly misses his ex. I don't miss Gelo that much.

Thing is.. My boyfriend doesn't trust him. I mean, he doesn't like the guy. Cause I stupidly said that I was developing a crush on him. But now? I realize that I see that guy as a friend. And that I really wanna help him. I want his ex to realize how sorry my friend is. And how I hope she'd forgive my friend. I don't want him to be sad, you know. He says he's free. From girls. And hassle magkagirlfriend. But still, I know what he's feeling.

I want him to be happy.

Although... Weird part of me wants him to play piano. Dedicated to moi. ) Nah.. I just like guys who know how to play the piano. Laking gulat ko when I found out that he plays. Makes a person look smart. And smart guys are hot. Well.. Not the nerdy types, take note.