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I feel disturbed. I mean. Whenever I hear Eternity, it seems like there's this sort of..sadness. A wave of unexplainable sadness washes over me. I don't know why.

It is Eternity. Why does it then sound so sad? First part, I can't understand it. Then, in the latter part, hope. But it still feels so sad. Makes me remember the pain. Pain from before. Guilt. Mixed emotions.

Then, back again to softness. Explanation of hope. Then continuity. Then...nothing. The end.

Listening to it again. I feel pity for my friend. It's his favorite. I know he's confused, and hurt. But he doesn't show it. And I do think that he's playing around with other girls, yes. But still. Makes me wanna help him. Cause he suffered so much with the loss of his ex. Even though he was the one who broke up with her. He feels stupid. Sigh.. What can I tell him? I don't know what advice to give him. Yes, I am concerned about this friend. I see myself in him. Well, most of the time. Although, not the part where he madly misses his ex. I don't miss Gelo that much.

Thing is.. My boyfriend doesn't trust him. I mean, he doesn't like the guy. Cause I stupidly said that I was developing a crush on him. But now? I realize that I see that guy as a friend. And that I really wanna help him. I want his ex to realize how sorry my friend is. And how I hope she'd forgive my friend. I don't want him to be sad, you know. He says he's free. From girls. And hassle magkagirlfriend. But still, I know what he's feeling.

I want him to be happy.

Although... Weird part of me wants him to play piano. Dedicated to moi. ) Nah.. I just like guys who know how to play the piano. Laking gulat ko when I found out that he plays. Makes a person look smart. And smart guys are hot. Well.. Not the nerdy types, take note.

Makes me wanna... Poof! Wala lang. Dum dum. I started the day.. Happy. Ended the day.. happy?

Haha. Asa. Happy? Really? Was with my friend the whole day. Cause he was supposed to help me edit videos. But then.. Something went wrong. I thought that he had the cable thing itself. Thing was, he was explaining that he had a firewire port in his laptop. We misunderstood each other. Once in the thesis room, I panicked cause I really wanted to finish everything. Anyway, he asked his friends if they had. Aw.. He told me "Swerte mo! Meron si ..". Then he kept saying sorry too. Haha. But it was okay. While waiting for his friend, we played neopets. And his tribalwars thing. Addict. We waited for around an hour and a half? I think. By the time the friend finally came, we both were very thankful. Till we found out that it didn't work and that my cam didn't have this usb something.

As he said "Worse comes to worst, we go to Umall to get someone transfer the minidv to a cd". So we went out. Went to Umall. First stop, the guy said it was 300. So my friend took me out and said "Mahal ang 300". So next stop, we asked how much. Girl said 250. But.. PER DV. I'm like "Holy sheep. It's costly. And unfair. I only had 10 minutes in one dv". Third stop, back to cdr king to buy firewire port cause we thought that it was the last chance/hope. I said "I didn't have the money". He said "Nah, I'll buy for myself". I'm like "why?" He's like "Cause I always wanted to have one. And it would be very useful next time". 0.o I know. Oh my. But anyway, upon reaching cdr king, someone called him. One of the MOCC's. So, yay! He said "Swerte mo talaga ngayon, Cham!" Ako naman.. "Bakit?" "Meron na nakaset up sa office! Yes!" So we went to the ROTC office. Then there! He captured! Sparred pa with my friend. Mock lang. And nothing big. Aroung a minute lang. So we waited. But then ang tagal! We went back to the thesis room cause he left his friend there. So we went back.. Then. We talked lang. Then, he went back to see how the videos were. Thing is, it wasn't done yet! And he left me along with his laptop. Fishy... Pictures of him and.. Haha. So there. Then he went back. His friend left. Then we talked about a lot of things. Then then..

Ardo texted. But I didn't have load that time. So, I used my friend's phone. Stupid! Wrong move. He knew who owned that number. Then, poof! Koko effin Crunch. 0.o Anyway, he had to do his demo. So I had no one to go with. Eh my friend was gonna practice his piano skills. Went with him. Listened. Send in the Cloud, Eternity, and a part of Eyes on Me. Yes, he knows about my past. Haha.

Then, we had to say our goodbyes. He had a meeting, I had a.. Well. I thought Arding was done. But then no.. Left without seeing Arding. And since he knew who I was with, badtrip. The whole time. Till this time. Sigh. Wrong move.

By the way, he smells good. Like powder or lotion. Smells so good. Has this distinct smell. Wee.